I remember the first time I ever went to the hospital.

They put me in a blue smock and a shower cap

That were too big, I had to walk around kinda holding it up

And it was awkward.

The air smelled unpleasant. Not good, not bad,

Just… sterile. And it scared me.

But I walked into the room where they pointed me to go,

And I don’t remember Mom, but I remember you.

Lindsay, we grew up together.

Guess we’ll keep growing up forever.

I don’t know if things get worse or things get better.

They change. We don’t stay the same.

Life’s a game no one’s winning.

There’s no life without you in it.

I’m glad about that.

This morning I forgot my therapy appointment

Was rescheduled from Tuesday to today.

I spent the whole day writing, editing documents,

Trying to make jargon sound like it comes naturally from me.

Guess I’m trying to sound grown up.

And I wish you were here.

Cause you’ve mastered that.

You sound grown up. You are grown up.